Author: Ava Dellaira
My Rating: 5 starts
Genre: Young Adult/Romance/Contemporary/Realistic Fiction
Published: May 1st, 2014
Series: No
“I think a lot of people want to be someone, but we are scared that if we try, we won't be as good as everyone imagines we could be.”
Okay, I have to say it... I am so freaking fascinated with this book that I don't even know how to start this review! I don't know how to describe what I feel about this story because at this moment my feelings are so messed up and my brain is so confused about all this because for all intents and purposes and matters and whatever you want to call it this story could be real, hence be considered 'realistic fiction'.
“And maybe what growing up really means is knowing that you don't have to be just a character, going whichever way the story says. It's knowing you could be the author instead.”
This is probably the first time that I couldn't pick just one quote from the book... I loved it SO MUCH... and all that is written in it is so well written that I don't even have words to explain.
The thing here is that I started reading this book and I didn't have the chance to say something like I usually say when I start reading 'realistic fiction'-'I am not liking it, this is boring!'. This time, on the first page, I 'glued' myself to the story, I liked the main character so much right at the begining, I can't explain, I just loved her!
''What I told you about saving people isn't true. You might think it is, because you might want someone else to save you, or you might want to save someone so badly. But no one else can save you, not really. Not from yourself. [...] You fall asleep in the foothills, and the wolf comes down from the mountains. And you hope someone will wake you up. Or chase it off. Or shoot it dead. But when you realize that the wolf is inside you, that's when you know. You can't run from it. And no one who loves you can kill the wolf, because it's part of you. They see your face on it. And they won't fire the shot.”
This story is basically about a girl whose sister died... and when the story begins you only know that her sister died! You don't know why because she didn't tell... and that probably is one of the reasons why I loved this book so much... it has kind of a mistery in it!
So this book was all written like there were letters in it... It's like... Laurel (the main character) was who wrote those letteres for dead people ( 'Love Letters to the Dead' - duh! Just don't judge me... I'm trying my best to explain this right! ). She started to write these letters because of her english teacher... it was kind of a homework where the students had to write a letter directed to a dead person, but Laurel wrote not just one but A LOT of them and kept the letter for her... she never showed those to anyone.
I got really emotive with this story because I was feeling what she was feeling and I hate (in a good way) when that happens... when I'm reading a book and the book is so well written that you are feeling the freaking things that the characters are feeling (I know... I wrote the word 'feeling' too much times... but come on, that's how I'm feeling!).
''You think you know someone, but that person always changes, and you keep changing, too. I understood it suddenly, how that’s what being alive means. Our own invisible plates shifting inside of our bodies, beginning to align into the people we are going to become.”
I could just tell you the whole story, I could write it... but I will not do it because I really don't want to be a spoiler... If I continue writing I'll tell you everything... I will tell how the story ends, what happens and what should or not happen... so I'll just stop writing!